I keep daydreaming about having a relationship. And if that isn't bad enough, it's with guys I know for a fact will never ever look my way. I feel like I'm a teenager again writing all over my binder "I <3 so-and-so". Seriously, it's insane! Also, I think it's making my expectations of guys a lot higher than it should be!
Anyways, I just thought I'd share that with my...oh look, NO followers...
Guess it's safe to say that it's been Jesse Labelle who has been invading my dreams and daydreams lately. There are one...okay, maybe TWO...other guys as well, but I'm sticking those close to home in case someone reads who they are...and I know people who have direct contact with them haha...so THAT cat's not being let out of the bag...
Peace.
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Friday, April 30, 2010
It is what it is
I'm in a city finally, and it's something I've wanted to do for quite awhile. And although it's not the city I really want to be in, it's a change for the greater right? I thought so - at first...I really felt that it was a step forward in my life, in becoming something bigger than just a student.
But ever since I've moved here I've felt secluded and alone. It's funny that in a city with more than 300,000 people, I sometimes feel like I'm the only one.
I've left everything that's familiar behind. Streets I know, the familiarity of everything around me, co-workers, friends. I may have some friends here, but they're busy with their own lives and friends they have. All mine are back in that little town I used to call home for more than 20 years.
As much as I love being in a city that's supposedly more exciting than a small town, I miss being able to hang out with friends on a whim. Or go to my workplace and hang out (yes, hang out) and know everybody and be able to talk to any one of them comfortably.
Nowadays I feel like an outcast because nobody wants to do anything with me anymore. I know I'm limited when it comes to travel because I decided to spend all my savings living freely without restraints in a city that I still miss and think about every day. I realize I'm 24 and still living at home. I realize I don't have a car. I get it...and it sucks. More than anyone will ever realize.
I hate that I've become that girl who is literally at home every weeknight and weekend.
I hate that a lot of the time I only have my ipod or a book to keep my company.
I hate the fact that I think of myself as a secondary friend...Someone they think about every once and awhile.
And finally, I hate myself for thinking this way. I don't even know what brought this on. All I do know is it's tearing into me right now and I really don't know what to do. I'm usually a happy person and the last day or so I just don't want to be.
But ever since I've moved here I've felt secluded and alone. It's funny that in a city with more than 300,000 people, I sometimes feel like I'm the only one.
I've left everything that's familiar behind. Streets I know, the familiarity of everything around me, co-workers, friends. I may have some friends here, but they're busy with their own lives and friends they have. All mine are back in that little town I used to call home for more than 20 years.
As much as I love being in a city that's supposedly more exciting than a small town, I miss being able to hang out with friends on a whim. Or go to my workplace and hang out (yes, hang out) and know everybody and be able to talk to any one of them comfortably.
Nowadays I feel like an outcast because nobody wants to do anything with me anymore. I know I'm limited when it comes to travel because I decided to spend all my savings living freely without restraints in a city that I still miss and think about every day. I realize I'm 24 and still living at home. I realize I don't have a car. I get it...and it sucks. More than anyone will ever realize.
I hate that I've become that girl who is literally at home every weeknight and weekend.
I hate that a lot of the time I only have my ipod or a book to keep my company.
I hate the fact that I think of myself as a secondary friend...Someone they think about every once and awhile.
And finally, I hate myself for thinking this way. I don't even know what brought this on. All I do know is it's tearing into me right now and I really don't know what to do. I'm usually a happy person and the last day or so I just don't want to be.
Friday, March 19, 2010
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Fierce Satisfaction
Fierce Satisfaction
Check this video out! My friend entered the Dorito`s Viralocity contest to name the new flavour and she needs as many views as possible! So watch it, refresh it and spread it around like a dirty STD!!
Check this video out! My friend entered the Dorito`s Viralocity contest to name the new flavour and she needs as many views as possible! So watch it, refresh it and spread it around like a dirty STD!!
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