Enjoy it while you can
You never know when it will all end
What's here today
Could be gone tomorrow
What once was a hero
The next day be sweet sorrow
Our lives fade fast
Moments so short
People take life for granted
Play it like a sport
They forget
How to be humane
How to preserve the world
And how to minimize the pain
They forget what should be done
Instead of what could be done
They forget how to create beauty
Instead of destroy
They need help to remember
The simplest joys
The joy of nature
The joy of human touch
The joy one gets
When one falls in love
The joy of family
The joy of wishing
These moments to never end
Life is precious
But not so pure
Life could end in a moment
So let's be sure
We remember the joy
We remember the world
We remember what we're here for
To remember the joy.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Friday, October 2, 2009
Take it or leave it.
I am 23 (almost 24) and I've never had a boyfriend.
Is it because I'm above average in size? Maybe. Is it because I'm extremely shy and a little insecure with myself? Probably. Or is it because I just haven't found somebody who is worth it? Yeah, I don't think so. I know everybody says there are 'plenty of fishi in the sea', or 'good things come to those who wait' but I am seriously starting to lose faith.
Why am I not able to find somebody who accepts me for me? Somebody who can accept all my flaws and quirks? Somebody who can accept that I am far from perfect but I am definitely the lovable type. I am one who loves to do things for people, just because. I love to smile and laugh and make light of heavy situations (if it's allowed).
My life is complicated, yet simple. I have been through a lot but I have not had very many experiences. I want to live, learn, and love with somebody who understands that. I'm making this sound like a dating ad, but that's not what I want. It's not like I'm expecting somebody to message my blog and be like 'let's go out'. A) It would never happen and B) I'm not one for online dating...been there, done that...I never had the guts to go through with it.
I prefer I meet somebody face to face. Blame the journalist in me, or whatever, but there is only so much you can learn from a person by talking to them online. You don't get to experience the way their voice changes when they talk, or their body language when they inch closer on the couch during a movie session. I want to know if what I'm seeing is the real deal or not.
To be honest, along with this no boyfriend deal, I've only been on two-ish dates. I say ish because my first one was set up when I was the tender age of 14. This was after being stood up twice before hand, and another deal breaker was that it was set up between my mom and her mechanic - that's right, her mechanic. The second date was an ish because I wasn't entirely sure if it was or not. I mean everything pointed to a yes. Even the body language at the end and the conversation that said 'I'll text you later and we'll make plans to get together again'. Ever since then, I've had reason to believe I got my hopes up - again.
What's the deal? I know all guys say girls/women are confusing, but what about them? Maybe I should just watch "He's Just Not That Into You" again and maybe I'll get the hint? Maybe.
I'm lost, confused, and at this point, afraid that I'll never get what I'm longing for. Ever.
Call me a pessimistic (which is odd considering I'm usually the optimist), but I guess that's just how it is. That's how I feel and until I find something or someone who makes me think differently, it's the way I'll be.
Is it because I'm above average in size? Maybe. Is it because I'm extremely shy and a little insecure with myself? Probably. Or is it because I just haven't found somebody who is worth it? Yeah, I don't think so. I know everybody says there are 'plenty of fishi in the sea', or 'good things come to those who wait' but I am seriously starting to lose faith.
Why am I not able to find somebody who accepts me for me? Somebody who can accept all my flaws and quirks? Somebody who can accept that I am far from perfect but I am definitely the lovable type. I am one who loves to do things for people, just because. I love to smile and laugh and make light of heavy situations (if it's allowed).
My life is complicated, yet simple. I have been through a lot but I have not had very many experiences. I want to live, learn, and love with somebody who understands that. I'm making this sound like a dating ad, but that's not what I want. It's not like I'm expecting somebody to message my blog and be like 'let's go out'. A) It would never happen and B) I'm not one for online dating...been there, done that...I never had the guts to go through with it.
I prefer I meet somebody face to face. Blame the journalist in me, or whatever, but there is only so much you can learn from a person by talking to them online. You don't get to experience the way their voice changes when they talk, or their body language when they inch closer on the couch during a movie session. I want to know if what I'm seeing is the real deal or not.
To be honest, along with this no boyfriend deal, I've only been on two-ish dates. I say ish because my first one was set up when I was the tender age of 14. This was after being stood up twice before hand, and another deal breaker was that it was set up between my mom and her mechanic - that's right, her mechanic. The second date was an ish because I wasn't entirely sure if it was or not. I mean everything pointed to a yes. Even the body language at the end and the conversation that said 'I'll text you later and we'll make plans to get together again'. Ever since then, I've had reason to believe I got my hopes up - again.
What's the deal? I know all guys say girls/women are confusing, but what about them? Maybe I should just watch "He's Just Not That Into You" again and maybe I'll get the hint? Maybe.
I'm lost, confused, and at this point, afraid that I'll never get what I'm longing for. Ever.
Call me a pessimistic (which is odd considering I'm usually the optimist), but I guess that's just how it is. That's how I feel and until I find something or someone who makes me think differently, it's the way I'll be.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
It's time...
So I've had this blogspot account since probably my second...maybe my third year at Guelph-Humber. It started out as an assignment and turned into a way to publish my story to get opinions. Well, that didn't work out so well. I ended up forgetting about it and instead not doing anything at all. I'm guilty of giving up on my writing! So I decided to delete all past posts and get a fresh start on it with many new opinions and pointless thoughts!
Anyways, life update. It's been about three and a half months since I've graduated from University and I'm still in that transitional mode where I don't really believe I'm officially an "adult", living in the adult world (okay, ignore the fact I still live at home). I'm in search of a full-time job but find that I'm being picky (unknowingly - most of the time). I feel that after spending hundreds of hours in classrooms, countless late nights pulling my hair out over a deadline and not to mention a few breakdowns (school related and unfortunately otherwise), I thought that I deserved to get a job that related to my field I studied for four years. Needless to say, I've been unsuccessful when it comes to finding a paid position. I was fortunate enough to come across sugarcainentertainment.com through craigslist and am now apart of the all-female team, but it's only a base. It's a way to get my writing out there and get noticed but unfortunately it involves my volunteered time and no money!
Which means I'm still a part-time employee at good ol' Zellers. Oh, Zellers. After being there for almost four years (minus the three months I was in Vancouver in the begining of 2009), I have gone through at least 5 managers (the fifth currently working), many different co-workers and a shitload of back-stabbing, bitching and complaining but I still managed to come through, although barely alive - atleast on some days.
The rest of my life these days seems to be going along the lines of monotone. Every day seems to be the same on most days with a little excitement thrown in here and there. I can't say I'm in a rut but I think if something doesn't happen soon...aka move out, get a life, get a boyfriend etc..I may go clinically insane and find myself in an institution with padded cells for protection! Okay, so I was exaggerating a tad but you get my drift right? I'm not entirely sure somebody wants to be associated with the criminally insane...wait did I just say criminally? I definitely meant clinical...haha.
So the future is still a mystery as that popular saying goes but I definitely need it to become clear sometime soon or I don't know what will happen!
Well, that's all for now, I guess we'll see how well this blogging goes in the future. Hopefully I'll stay true to my word and my writing and something will become of this blogpost. Who knows, maybe I'll be come a Perez Hilton of sorts. Pfft, yea okay so I exaggerated again...just a little. Hey, a girl can dream can't she?
Anyways, life update. It's been about three and a half months since I've graduated from University and I'm still in that transitional mode where I don't really believe I'm officially an "adult", living in the adult world (okay, ignore the fact I still live at home). I'm in search of a full-time job but find that I'm being picky (unknowingly - most of the time). I feel that after spending hundreds of hours in classrooms, countless late nights pulling my hair out over a deadline and not to mention a few breakdowns (school related and unfortunately otherwise), I thought that I deserved to get a job that related to my field I studied for four years. Needless to say, I've been unsuccessful when it comes to finding a paid position. I was fortunate enough to come across sugarcainentertainment.com through craigslist and am now apart of the all-female team, but it's only a base. It's a way to get my writing out there and get noticed but unfortunately it involves my volunteered time and no money!
Which means I'm still a part-time employee at good ol' Zellers. Oh, Zellers. After being there for almost four years (minus the three months I was in Vancouver in the begining of 2009), I have gone through at least 5 managers (the fifth currently working), many different co-workers and a shitload of back-stabbing, bitching and complaining but I still managed to come through, although barely alive - atleast on some days.
The rest of my life these days seems to be going along the lines of monotone. Every day seems to be the same on most days with a little excitement thrown in here and there. I can't say I'm in a rut but I think if something doesn't happen soon...aka move out, get a life, get a boyfriend etc..I may go clinically insane and find myself in an institution with padded cells for protection! Okay, so I was exaggerating a tad but you get my drift right? I'm not entirely sure somebody wants to be associated with the criminally insane...wait did I just say criminally? I definitely meant clinical...haha.
So the future is still a mystery as that popular saying goes but I definitely need it to become clear sometime soon or I don't know what will happen!
Well, that's all for now, I guess we'll see how well this blogging goes in the future. Hopefully I'll stay true to my word and my writing and something will become of this blogpost. Who knows, maybe I'll be come a Perez Hilton of sorts. Pfft, yea okay so I exaggerated again...just a little. Hey, a girl can dream can't she?
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